Trying to find yourself.

For the longest time I have been looking to the future to figure things out and being in the " I don't know" phase hasn't helped an awful lot. Although I'm still figuring things out I have found out some things.
I know that I'm a dreamer, traveller, lover of adventures that scare and thrill me and ultimately that if I feel like I'm living authentically its not about the destination but about how I get there. I often find myself writing down phrases I hear or well thought out dialogue from different content. I have begun to fill journals with thoughts on myself and the world around me. In a way I like to get to know that kind of people surround myself and their thoughts and ideas, and mine as well. Some are embarrassing to reread but I find it enjoyable to reread what I thought in certain situations.
Depending on the situation I'm in I can feel and energy in the air, sometimes it overcomes me and  lately and it follows with laughter, joy and happiness.
But ultimately I find that as I enter my twenties , I would rather stay inside playing make-believe with moving pictures in my head than party with people I've been told are my friends. I don't know why I was born into the family I was or why my choices have gotten me here.
But I like to remember the feeling I have right now, the overwhelming love I have for the people around me, and the passion I feel when I do the right thing which is often the hard way. But I don't think I would change anything. I'm still trying to find out who I am as a person and what I want out of live.