Well No. I've always been jealous of those people you went to school with who knew what they wanted and how they where going to get it. I was for a short while one of those people, I knew what I wanted and how to get it but then the reality of life set in and I suddenly didn't know which way was up. I moved country to expand my horizons and to have experiences which I'm gratefully for don't get me wrong but it has only made this time in my life harder. I know that's very millennial of me, to blame the world for everything and honestly that's not what I'm doing here.
When you're younger you look at these older 20 somethings and think they have it all together and then suddenly you're one of those 20 year old's but you're stumbling in the dark hoping not to bump into a table or stub your toe on the corner of something, but like everything eventually you do and you're turned around unsure of which direction to go in. but i know that sooner or later you find your way and it will all have been worth it.
I have this habit of overthinking everything even the smallest things and that's what i'm doing now i guess, I've been accepted into a college but it means that i have to move back to Ireland away from my comfort and my family. The unsurity has me feeling like a mess but eventually i'll find my way right? Well I hope so.
I understand that everything changes ans in order to survive we have to adapt and I guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm adapting slowly and by writing it here it helps me work things out.
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